:: take my sORROW, take my pATIENCE ::

:: Monday, December 29, 2003 ::

ah jeez. how am i gonna say this?
not using this blog anymore

:-p meng somehow convinced me go to LJ. i don't know HOW. but she did ¬¬ grr XD.
so the new link is: http://livejournal.com/~midnlghtsun

so yeah. i guess i won't be really writting in here anymore. i still have to modify lots of things in LJ tho...cause right now it looks like crap. and i didn't even mean to, but it just so happens i have like the same colors in there as i do in this layout. crazy huh?! i think the "midnight sun" kinda got to me a little bit...:-)

its been what...almost 6 months since i've been here? aw. i'll love this place for ever. seriously i'm gonna sign on every month just to make sure this still exists. cause its like...6 months of my life that gets erased if this does go away.

:: felt like saying something @ 10:16 PM ::

woo. look, its the 28th.
HAPPY B-DAY TO KRISTINE

saturday i was in so much fucking pain i thought i could have died. its not a good idea to wake up early and go on the internet for like 3 hours. because you get a fucking bad headache and then you sleep till like 1:00 and you basically wasted half your day. i was thinking of calling kristine and say that i couldn't go to her party because i was feeling so much like shit. then i was like, "i would feel like hell if somebody did that to me". but the good thing is i felt better after tylenol. we had the hardest time finding kristine's house...and my dad got pissed. whats funny tho is that i was still the first person there. then lolly came and then kristine's friend i had never met, and then brittany. we rented friday the 13th and ghost ship (<---- which i had seen at julia's). oh my gawd friday the 13th is the funniest movie EVER. everytime kristine screamed i would scream because it freaked me out XD. oh man the movie was so fun to make fun of. it was sad tho, when jason died. thats really really sad. didn't really get a chance to do anything else because right after singing happy b-day and cutting the cake my dad came. talk about being a party pooper. kristine's mom let me take the cake back and i got a bag of stuff hehe. the way home was...quiet.

i feel bad when other people know me and i don't remember them. i wish i had like a photographic memory or something. and never forget anything. and also, my past is not something i'm proud of. i kinda just realized that.

Listening to: Staind - excess baggage and its easy to hide, all this damage inside

:: felt like saying something @ 12:18 AM ::

Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?

Take the test, by Emily.

What Nervous Habit are You? Find out!



Which Daughters of the Moon Character are You?Find out!


^ oh my gawd i love that series...haven't read in so long tho.

:: felt like saying something @ 6:26 AM ::

courtesy of jess! jebus look at what time it is.

1) Using band names, spell out your first name:
hmm i better have done this right...
No use for a name
A perfect circle
NIN (rarely listen...)
Cure (rarely listen but they're good :-p)
Yellowcard
2) Have you ever had a song written about you? no...aw that sounds so sweet
3) What song makes you cry? i guess any of them except a few could if i were in the mood
4) What song makes you happy? [the offspring - hit that] is the one that comes to mind first
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? my cds...
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber: mm...loco
7) Who was/were your idols when you were younger? i don't think i had any. go me! :-p
8) First album you ever bought? :-/ chevelle...hahHAHa whoa hell yeah. i never buy cds...
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why: heh. yeah....

HEIGHT: like 5'2"-5'3"
HAIR COLOR: black -_-
SKIN COLOR: er i guess i'm decently colored
EYE COLOR: brown
PIERCINGS: mmmm no
TATTOOS: mmmmmm no


r i g h t n o w


WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: orange/blue/maroon/aqua/yellow striped pajamas...
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: [ayumi hamasaki - heartplace] (<--- japanese btw...) yeah yeah i dug into my old songs...:-) i love this song alkdjaskajsd
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: i can't taste worth shit right now...
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: probably cold as hell


d o y o u

GET MOTION SICKNESS?: didn't use to, but i do now...
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: hmm...i guess
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: not realy. maybe my mom at certain times
LIKE TO DRIVE?: haven't yet


f a v o r i t e s

MAGAZINE: i guess i'll flip through anything thats clean if you know what i mean...guitar/rock mags are cool but i haven't really gotten any...YET
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: dr.pepper
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: er i don't drink that often. if i did, it would be wine coolers :-p
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: psh who knows
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: too many of the first, a couple of the 2nd and third

h a v e y o u

BROKEN THE LAW: yeah
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no...
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: no
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: hahaha yeah
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: LOL no
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no...
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: no...
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: no...
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yeah -_-
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: hmm...nope...

l o v e

BOYFRIEND: no
GIRLFRIEND: no
SEXUALITY: straight
CHILDREN: no
BEEN IN LOVE?: most likely not.
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: *sigh*
BEEN HURT? fuck yeah
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: yeah theres 1...aqsdfghjkl
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: asdfghjjkfah hell no

r a n d o m

DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: mmm...
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with people that mean something to me...and music of course :-p
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: i don't think i'll be GETTING a cd...if u know what i mean.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: -------


w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: i don't know...
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: haha i hope a PACKAGE counts. cause that was on wednesday :-p

YOU GOT E-MAIL: hmm about 8 hours ago
THING YOU PURCHASED: a necklace for $6
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: wow no idea

MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: lord of the rings 3 (<----- OAJKSDL;KAJF MUST SEEE)

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: asked too frequently
TEENAGE SMOKING: sick. and smoking in general is just fucking sick
SPICE GIRLS: -hahaha-
DREAMS: er great.

:: felt like saying something @ 5:20 AM ::

whoa today was a good day :-)
in like the morning i went to the mall with my mom and she bought me a lot of crap, and half of it was like either upcoming b-day presents or belated b-day/christmas gifts XD. for kristine's b-day, i got her this set of spray stuff that smell effing good, a picture holder...and lip gloss. and OH MY GAWD I GOT THIS LINKIN PARK KEYCHAIN FOR $.50!!!!! KLSDALJKSFHLAKJSFH LOL. so anyway i went to court's and we left almost immediately when everybody came...first stop = best buy cause court had a $25 gift card. but we didn't get anything and walked out and went to deb. deb is...well their dresses are pretty good. after that was hot topic which we spent like forever in...i found this awesome star necklace and i was gonna go pay for it but the line was really long so we said we'd come back later. we went to this bookstore and court got this inuyasha wall scroll which is pretty neato. and then claire pointed out this extremely hot guy and i was like "ASKDJLHAKJFAHKLJ" after that was suncoast and court spent $85 there on only 3 dvds and 1 magazine. we were all like...bAFFLED XD. and the cash register person was totally trying to flirt w/ court. hes like "yeah i got suspended from school for 7 weeks" and then afterwards when we had left claire's like "you shoulda said, 'well my boyfriend is expelled from our entire DISTRICT for putting a bOMB in our school" :-p oh yeah i bought a sierra mist there...which i couldn't even smell because i am still sick and my nose is stuffed. WHOA and then that hot guy came in to suncoast and we were liek "aklsjdfklaj wtF" XD. sam goody after that, and i got new earphones FINALLY. the price said it was $5.99 and then my total came to like $4.75...i was like sweet :-p can't remember the exact order of the stores after this, but at pac sun i got 3 rings for like $6...i was like yay but then afterwards i kinda realized it was a ripoff :-p cause pac sun just absolutely sucks. we spent some time at claires but didn't buy anything. actually we spent some time in a lot of stores...OH MY GAWD HAHAHAH!!! AT CLAIRES, they had these "best friend" frog keychains, and like the frogs were supposed to have 2 arms and 2 legs and when i first saw em i was liek 'aawwwww look at these!' and then jolene was like "this one's missing a leg" HAHAHA OH MAN IT WAS SO FUNNY. then we were like "we should ALL get one, and then rip a leg off" XD. i went back to hot topic and got my necklace :-p and court and jolene both bought shoelaces for some odd reason... ah but yeah we got back at around 6:30, had pizza, which was really good, but i couldn't smell any of it :-p and watched THE ITALLIAN JOB. it was funny so funny because i kept on asking stupid questions because i couldn't really see the screen so i didn't know who was who. the napster thing was funny as fudge tho :-) after like 5 minutes into the movie FINAL DESTINATION my mom came to pick me up..-_- der. i wanted to see that god damnit. asdlkjfklgj

so today was a pretty cool day. looking forward to tomorrow night! and next week too i suppose. me and jenna still have to go see a movie! (btw i have like $24 left...spent $20 :-p)

oh haha. me and claire kept on saying/thinking the same things. like i picked up this ring at claire's and put it on my finger and shes like "oo i have that ring!" and then when we were by these bracelets shes liek "these are cool!" and i was thinking the same thing. at spencers she was reading this magnet and i had just read it o_O and we said a buncha things at the same time. oh man it was freaky but kinda funny. but more freaky :-p :-)

:: felt like saying something @ 11:00 PM ::

okay i am not gonna type what i had to go through at my neighbor's house today.

christmas is really really weird. oh and i'm so incredibly pissed at photoshop..its been effing up on me and even tho i re-installed it like 5 times today it still won't let me use brushes. i don't know what the fuck i did, but i need help. i am gonna go upstairs and write some shit...i think um...yeah. i wanna call some people so bad but they're all spending time with their family and i don't want to "intrude". and my family is just sitting around watching tv -_- this sucks. ok i am gonna stop sounding so pitiful now. yesterday i was so happy and today its like everything did a complete 180. i hate it when my days are like this. nothing is ever stable for me...i mean, 1 day i could be the happiest person on earth and the next...*sigh* it sucks ass being me. i guess i shouldn't complain since there are so many more people who are way worse off. the ones who are on the streets and have no home...but theres always so much emotional shit going on in my life. none of it is like physical suffering or anything, but emotions hurt too.

(oh yeah, i am doing what jess does now :-p)
*edit*on a happier note, tomorrow i get to hang out w/ court, jolene and claire after 3:00!*/edit*

Listening to: stone sour - inhale hah it just ended when i finished typing that :-p

:: felt like saying something @ 7:39 PM ::

okay seriously, i am SO FREAKING AMUSED by AFI's titles: MIDNIGHT SUN and MORNING STAR

HAHAHAHA oh my gawd. you know its awesome god DAMNIT. and yes, i did sign up for an LJ account just because. guess what my name is....midnlghtsun (<--- i didn't want no numbers :-p)!!!!
yup. today was one of the bestest days ever. i missed mary's phone call tho because i fell asleep ...DAMN me!!! ugh. its like...hmm...i dunno how to explain it. like i finally talked to people...like i am more aware of everybody's life now. because i feel like i'm in the process of slipping away from people that i used to know. (<--- haha omg that sounded like such a song lyric) and i feel that less now. but its still there. i think i need to make more of an effort to stay in touch with people. but sometimes...i don't even know if they care.

anyways///new layout is coming soon! i am gonna put it up on 01/01/04 :-p i'm totally thankful to may*star for making it. seriously dude she has the coolest templates ever.
today was a good dayyy. and wow, its already christmas. and i'm talking to annie. well...
MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all....

:: felt like saying something @ 12:38 AM ::

HAPPY B-DAY TO MARY! called and nobody was home so i left a message~

:-) yesterday i went to see lord of the rings 3 with savi and emily. first we thought revae and ari and CHELSIE could come too but then chels had to leave at 5:00....and the movie STARTED at 4:45 lol. anyway, BEST FRICKEN MOVIE EVER. KJHASLJKDHALSKFH it was so perfect in like every way. AWWWW MANNNNNN!!!!!! yeah. i'd love to go see it again. and again. its annoying sitting infront of someone who keeps on kicking your chair tho. seriously there was this girl behind me and she'd be kicking it and i didn't wanna turn around and bitch at her but i was trying to make it obvious that i wasnt comfortable but that didn't really work. oh well i survived. when the movie was done emily was like "if only that aragorn guy was hot" and me and savi were like "L;AKSJ;ALSKF;HG HE ISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!" XD.

for lunch my family and i went to red lobsters. i got chicken...meh it was pretty good.
tomorrow = lunch w/ neighbors which i am not looking forweard to. UGH. effing aye

yeah and poop. everybody ditched blogger for livejournal since they don't have that stupid code thing anymore. i think they all forgot about me :-p der maybe i'll switch....OR NOT.

:: felt like saying something @ 3:16 PM ::

mmm. winter break. woke up at like 8:00. psh everytime we're on vacay i always have a lot of energy...played guitar...ate food...and then went to sleep. and then MY MUSHROOMHEAD SHIRT CAME!!!!!! seriously i was NOT expecting it to come so fast. its been like...2 days!!! but the other cool thing is that the shirt came with a victory records sampler!!! with like...count the stars, glassjaw, tbs, silverstein...AND i got a silverstein sticker!!! :-D i really really like this person.

:: felt like saying something @ 3:02 PM ::

akldjfhadlsjgh today was freakin awesome. i can't believe i got so much shit from other people. stephanie absolutely went crazy with my present. she made a SCARF with our school colors, a picture frame, and oh my gawd a bunch of other stuff. i was flipping out when i was looking at it all. then claire made me cookies and courtney gave me a plate of cookies also, and then jolene made me this candle thingy-ma-jig and well...osifjaklf i dunno how to describe it. emily had the cutest red chinese takeout box w/ chocolates that i believe her and her mom made. which was unbelievable. sara gave me this adorable dog with this huge head and tiny ass XD. and jenna gave me a bag full of stuff, and the best thing was this candycane from starbucks that had this magnetic dancing santa & snowman. me and revae would pull the string and then watch them move around for so long. HAHA omg that sounded so wrong >< whoops, forgot to mention yesterday that annie gave me smelly body wash lol :-D yeah at lunch since i didn't have any lunch money i took out the plate of cookies and shared em with revae and jacqui. but they were mainly eating the candy i gave them. whooops i forgot what they were called. sour punch strings or something like that?

the only thing that wasnt exactly ideal was when i gave the note that my mom wrote so i didn't have to swim to the lady, she was like "well i just don't understand, if you aren't in the condition to swim how could you be in the condition to be in school?" and i was like "well i mainly wanted to give out my presents." and shes like "well you sit through every other class and gym is a class" and i wanted to say "well swimming isn't exactly the same as sitting in a desk" der. i think i have to go to make up swim for 2 days >< asjdfal;kfj;asg

but oh well. tis winter break. 26th = court's house and mall, 27th = kristine's b-day party :-)

(btw i bought (aka ordered) a mushroomhead shirt and an A PERFECT CIRCLE shirt) askdjlhasljkfahs :-D

LIstening to: Allister - overrated

:: felt like saying something @ 4:59 PM ::

HAHAAH OH MY GAWD THIS JUST MADE MY DAY.
(a comment)

you sounds like one sad person
get a life
raph

no need to state the obvious, dumbass.

:: felt like saying something @ 7:23 PM ::

today i felt like shit. woke up 10 minutes before the bus came and ran out there thinking i had already missed the bus and skipping breakfast. but then i ended up waiting longer than i had to so i was freezing my ass off for nothing. i had the worst headache ever and the worst cough. i really thought my "cold" would get better but it didn't. you know how when your throat is all fudged up you sound weird when u talk? well thats how i sounded the whole time and then even tho i had my swimming stuff but no note, i decided to just not swim because my head felt like it was on fire. i told the lady and she actually sympathized with me. laskjaslkgf she said i should go to the nurse but i was like "no i don't want to" because i still had to give annie her thing and the main reason why i went to school today was because of that!
so i sat on the bleachers...it continues to amaze me how we do barely anything in swimming. today they just did one test...which i'll have to make up after winter break >< but as i was saying, on the first day they gave us a list of all the tests we had to do...but we're only doing 3! asdahsfklasjgh i guess thats really good. erm throughout the day i felt....the same as i did. but after lots of tylenol i think my fever was going down, but then my nose started to run lol. argh. so tomorrow i'm not swimming. my mom was like "you shouldn't even go to school tomorrow" and i was like well what about the 11 things i have to give away? and then she said she'll write me a note so i don't have to swim. since i'll be making up my missed day today anyway might as well do 2 :-p. except tomorrow all we're doing is a written test and swimming around for fun. ARGH. FUCK I HATE BEING FUCKING SICK. and RIGHT BEFORE WINTER BREAK. my god i wanna kill something really REALLY bad. lkajsfkahlkagjhlkfhsdklfhlakjghalkfjah

i have so much shit to do and tonight is my CBS lineup night ><

:: felt like saying something @ 7:20 PM ::

yesterday was stupid.

today a lot of weird things kept on happening to me...in french we finished the movie, swimming we did testing which i most likely failed but whatever, and i dropped one of my rings when we were changing and i thought i'd never find it. but i did. and then in english i dropped another ring and i checked under everything and it wasnt there, but when we were about to leave i lifted up my notebook and there it was. o_O. then at lunch...i got a hamburger and there was blue shit in it T_T i thought it was like mold. but then it looked like food coloring. i didn't go up there and complain tho...ah whatever. it was sick was hell tho i thought i was gonna throw up. akjlsfhklajsdh 2 days of swimming left. WOW.

oh yeah i forgot to mention i am really sick. this morning my whole body was sore because of the swimming we did on monday...and then my throat, it hurt really bad to cough. and plus i was feeling warm and cold at the same time. i took some tylenol. its the fuckin swimming that gave me this cold. ugh. tomorrow i'm giving annie her thingy since she won't be there on friday :-p and then on friday i'm bringing this like huge ass bag full of shit i'm giving. man....i have to go finish writting cards...

Listening to: slipknot - my plague I'LL REACH IN AND TAKE A BITE OUT OF THAT SHIT YOU CALL A HEART

:: felt like saying something @ 2:59 PM ::

mm nice morning...court came finally! in swimming we had to do the 1 minute swim...and then the 5 minute swim...er don't ask why. it wasn't bad tho. i think as long as i don't have to do snorkeling or diving, i'm fine. heh in english i accidentally got ahead of everyone and finished my paragraphs...at lunch, holy SHIT neither revae OR jacqui was there. i was so alone until jenna came and i wasn't expecting she could come :-D omG we were so fucking obvious -_- asjdksafhgjkl. hes SO beautiful though and dont ask who if you don't already know XD. and also btw this isn't a big deal at all// its more like lusting. and not in that nasty way, jerk :-p

new seats in science, test in SS. man i'm so cold. i spent what seemed like another 2 hours cutting out STARS.
oh yeah. SANDRA WON ON SURVIVOR!!!!!!! I WAS so happy. and omG shudap, jon is actually good looking outside survivor. XDDD theres something about him that just appeals to me...alksdjkalsfha.

dude there are a lot of guys that are just so fucking inconsiderate and fucked up. and no, that was not random.

Listening to: a perfect circle - the hollow <3 <3 <3

:: felt like saying something @ 5:19 PM ::

hmm...today we accomplished a lot. the only thing i wanna do now is be able to watch 3 hours of survivor & alias tonight. which is of course, is impossible because i am recording survivor and when it gets done recording it'll be 10:00 and....+3 hours = 1:00 AM. ><

we FINALLY practiced today!!! it was hilarious as hell. savi's printer was fudged up and when she turned it on, it made the LOUDEST noise EVER. it was funny but scary at the same time. and then we were trying to get ari to sing through the phone since she couldn't come...except that didn't exactly work...:-/ we really sound bad tho >< urrg. this is what happens when you haven't practiced for 2 months. and when your tabs don't sound correct together. which is why i've been trying to write my own...and the only one i've written PARTLY is macys day parade because its easy :-p

i'm obsessed with audioslave - i am the highway JAAJSFASJFHALKGAHSFJ i love that guitar solo in the middle T_T anyway time to watch alias. ALKSJSKLJFA;KFJ MICHAEL VARTAN *_*

:: felt like saying something @ 7:52 PM ::

man. i'm feeling so extremely alsjklkasfa right now. i need to talk to somebody. i saw the sweetest LP shirt yesterday on ebay. except it would be $18 total and i don't know if i am ready to splurge right now. i mean i have the money but...ugh. its SO FUCKIN AWESOME THO. and also, who knows, maybe somebody already bought it. my mom bought 30 bags of ramen today (XD) and meng said if you ate the noodles right out of the bag and sprinkled the seasoning on its really good. my god i should try that. is it just me or are there a lot of shows that have the gay/lesbian thing going on? will and grace have always, but awhile ago on cold case they had it where the gay guy got (omG 3 Gs LOL) killed and then i flipped to tru calling on thursday and they had the 2 lesbians going like "well what should we do? etc" i don't know if thats the way the media is trying to get into society that this is what happens to "alternative lifestyle" people and that its really fucking sad or maybe they are implying how its not right :-/ akljfasfj i really don't know. someone told me that STDs were FIRST transmitted when 2 people the same sex erm..yeah. and thats why people looked at them back then like they were such freaks of nature. i don't even know if its true -_- i mean, i'd like to think its not. god i have a lot of hw >< it sucks when you have so much to do and so much thats going through your head T_T

Listening to: Sevendust - honesty this is my fav song on the cd!!!!

:: felt like saying something @ 7:51 PM ::

lol we got out of school at about 11:40 because there was a "bomb threat". psh this happens to linda and helen all the time and finally it happens to us! XD i walked home with ari, revae, savi and emily.

besides the fact i had the worst time in the pool, today was a decent day. heeh only 5 more days of swimming! hahah jenna is one of the strangest people i know. XDD she was obsessing over something i didn't even notice. awww it was so great though. i feel so special. ^^ T_T XD

last night on survivor. HAHAHAH!!!! sandra is fuckin awesome. in the beginning shes like "i'm gonna hide the pots and the net and blah blah and they won't even notice" HAHAH oH MY GAWD. I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD. aw burton got kicked tho. poop. he was actually decent and not bad looking either. okay whoa nevermind XD.
oh yeah i'm super pissed because one of my ideas for gifts is out the window. and i even got the supplies but it just won't fucking work. god. i wasted like...$3. STILL!!!! ¬¬
omg i wanna see the last samurai T_T skljfal;jf;ahs TOM CRUISE!!!!!!

Listening to: Wallflowers - one headlight

:: felt like saying something @ 2:29 PM ::

today was a decent day except it just doesn't feel like it. i think its probably because i didn't see as many people as i usually do...and i didn't talk to anybody really either. lots of people were gone for that field trip...lucky asses. court has the stomach flu and she wasn't here for the 3rd day today! :-( i was alone in swimming cause stephanie wasn't there. it wasn't too bad tho, because we only did snorkeling. can't wait till the end of tomorrow though, halfway done with swimming for ever! me and julia passed notes during the movie in english. hahaha shes like "wow that guy is hot! i'd date him anyday" XD. and *shudder* i regret saying i wanted to know what kristen was talking about. it was similar to what kristine had said, except it was a different time >< T_T gawd. i cannot believe this. and now i think the person we were talking about knows that i know it, so they are like completely ignoring/avoiding me now. damnit i was too loud XD ><
i got 80% on the science test. it only brought my grade like 2% down though surprisingly...:-/ new seats tomorrow though. i can't wait in a way, but i don't wanna not sit by kristen anymore. poOop.

SURVIVOR & CSI & WITHOUT A TRACE on tonight. i'm not missing it this time :-P

:: felt like saying something @ 6:22 PM ::

lol. never using court's locker again :-p poop she wasn't here again but i put my swimming stuff in there as usual. after french i go there and literally tried 7 times to open it. NOPE. i had the right combination. its just everytime i got to the end the lock would SPIN and you couldn't go back to where it was!! (<--- hard to explain) so i was pissed and i saw stephanie and i'm like "yeah. i cant get my locker open so i guess i'm not swimming. i'll go to make-up swim with you guys then!" heh nope. i told the lady and shes like "well we're gonna go ask the custodian" and all this other stuff >< but the only good part is i got to ride in the elevator XD. the guy just finished shoveling and so he was in a pissy mood to go do something else >< i led him to the locker and he just uses this key to open it -_- i bet he thought i didn't actually know the combo or something. blahh. the swimming part actually wasn't that bad. swimming underwater is hard though. hah and i thought you could just purposely drown XD

erm. blah today was a weird day. learned something disturbing from kristine about someone. sick. SICK. man thats so fucking sick and i can't stop thinking about it now ;_; *cries* kristen still didn't tell me what she was gonna say in science :-p oh well, i believe its something close to what kristine said. i'm still gonna make her tell me tomorrow tho :-p btw the science test was hard. i think i did really bad. we'll see tomorrow...!
ramen is like the best thing on earth almost. SHRIMP---& CHICKEN

Listening to: Mushroomhead - kill tomorrow

:: felt like saying something @ 4:20 PM ::

i cannot believe this. i just typed this fucking long ass post and blogger decides to go fucked up on me.

i'm allergic to chlorine no shit. i've been getting some of the worst headaches after swimming and that also includes the feeling of throwing up. UGH. at least only 8 more days/// after this i am gonna burn my swim suit. and WATCH IT BURN.

court wasn't here today and it was snowing really hard T_T i think i am gonna kill kristen :-p shes like 'hey i have to tell you something about this guy later' and i'm like "ok" then i ask her and shes like "uuuuuhhhg its too nasty i don't wanna say it!" and i'm like "NOOOOO you DON'T DO THIS TO A PERSON!!!!!" XDD i am gonna make her tell me tomorrow ¬¬ :-D in lunch jenna came again and she kept on stealing my food. i kept on being a bitch about it and now i feel bad, but the ironic thing is i didn't even finish my food and it was my fav lunch >< gah. damn me. claire came today with a simple plan shirt on. i <3 it a lOT. i have at least 1 test every day this week...dang. oh last night i made the cover to the christmas cards i am making. it took me so damn long. i'm not giving people any clue how its gonna look like :-p its kinda weird looking tho...:-/ akakshfakjfha. oh yeah today i popped in something i haven't listened to in a LONG time which = staind. it brings back the summer memories and when i had it in my cd player for about 3 months XD. i got connected with their lyrics again. its not like i ever forgot em...i think they just got buried under everything else after. wah i <3 staind for ever. except that sentence didn't make any sense -_- or did it? haha one funny thing that proves i'm a dumb ass: everwood was a repeat last night so i just randomly flipped to average joe and started watching it. damn its weird how i always catch the finales of reality shows -_- anyway, she ended up picking the hotter guy. it was sad...cause that adam guy gave her all those gifts and hes rich as hell. and plus hes funny. mehh who would wanna live with a guy thats 26 and hasn't graduated from college?? ok whoa that sounded extremely mean XD i didn't mean it. after that was like "wooo hooo CSI: miami is on!" and i flip to CBS, except i see the end credits to it. and i'm liek "WHAT!? they played it an hour earlier!??!" and then the news starts and i was like "what the fuck it can't be 10:00!" and then i go upstairs and it IS. average joe was 2 HOURS!!!!!! ><
ow my foot fell asleep

Listening to: Wallflowers - one headlight wah haven't listened in a long time

:: felt like saying something @ 5:29 PM ::

and last night on alias. WOW. that fucker died. HAHAHHHHHHHH!!!!! :-D
and when sloane goes "i love her too" HAHAHAHAHAHA ROFLMAO. WOWWWWW. i absolutely <3 vaughn. its sad tho :-( *tear

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today = steph's b-day!

after french we swam. it was nice how stephanie came with me in lane one. except the er...funny thing is....the lanes start in 9 feet and end in like...4 o_O i was like dude what the shit. i thought the deep end was a separate area except its noT. pff and jolene says she likes this pool. but uhm i think i gave the lady the wrong idea >< she like thinks i can't swim at all because i said i wasn't too great in the deep end. well actually, i don't even know what my ability is. askfhlahsga. damnit di got me into that habit now :-p i hate changing though. i think its almost the worst part. BLAH only 9 more days left. i feel bad cause i got this e-mail i was supposed to reply to over a week ago and i still haven't replied >< i was talking to claire and she gets to go to the kdwb jingle ball at 5:00. meh i'm not exactly into pop anymore but its still cool to go to any concert with famous people XD. jenna came into my lunch hour today again. it was fun. shes obsessed with this guy in my math class -_--- she wanted me to find out what his name was, which i found out by asking revae -_- today was an okay day. ugh. i just hate being wet. i just hate the water.

Listening to: Mushroomhead - along the way

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MY GOGGLES SNAPPED BUT JENNA IS LETTING ME USE HERS! AND I FOUND MY SHORTS!!! XD

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wow. busy weekend. CS was cool. OMFG my first 100. everyone thought i cheated but i really didn't. after CS i went to kristine's church and helped babysitt the kids while the parents went out. i have never been in a church before. or wait...i think i might have gone to one when i was in CA but thats not the point. i can't help myself. i can't even count the times i said "OH MY GOD" in vain. and when i was in the church my body seemed to not be normal either. my leg hurt. and i couldn't stop sneezing so i think i was allergic to something. it was really fun spending time with teeny tho. now i'll know who she's talking about when she talks about them lol. haha the baseball cap & glitter -_- after that her mom drive through mcdonalds and i got a mcflurry. haven't had one of those in...a shocking long time. came home and went on the internet. got yelled at by my dad so i watched last week's cold case that i recorded. so i really wasn't home at all saturday :-/

today we went the usual grocery shopping and i got a lot of the stuff i need for peopel's christmas presents. yay. its just that we got back so late i haven't had time to sort any of it or even look at em. i have a lot of homework to do. most of it i'll end up not doing, but i still had to BS the science one -_- swimming tomorrow. hah i tried on my swim suit. it got so small, erm..meaning i got big XD so thank god we can wear shorts & a shirt over it. but UGHHH i can't find the shorts i was gonna wear. i hate how everytime you dont need something its always there. and everytime you desperately need it you just can't seem to find it. dreading tomorrow majorlyyyy. and plus i'm broke.

//// i think hoobastank: the reason qualifies as one of the top 3 CDs this year. and the track the reason is such an amazing song. oh my GAWD i could listen to it forever. i don't know if anyone cares but the cd comes out on tuesday.....(9th)but hah suckers, i got it already.

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*annie you jerk. it helps me self esteem* XDDD. :-p don't mock me :-(*

rofl. i'm in a way better mood this morning. last night absolutely sucked after i got off the phone with mary. god i love talking to her. i was complaining how everything we say is always 2 sided. and shes like "thats how every word is. if you're gonna live in this world, you just have to deal with it." aw. that made me open up my mind. then we were talking about colleges and mary says she might go to UofM and my dad says its shitty even tho he GRADUATED from it. what a fucker! anyway and i'm one of those people that have no interest in learning. i guess i learn because i have to, ya know? but i don't do it so i can go to yale and be the CEO of some huge company and earn a lot of money. i think i would rather do something that helps people. we talked for like 2 hours on this stuff until my mom yelled at me to get off the phone for like the 5th time. speaking of my mom (and dad), they are such freaks. after the phone i told them i thought UofM wasn't bad. and they were like "what do you plan on doing when you grow up?" and i was like "i think i want to work with people." and they make this disapproved expression. like seriously its SO pointless talking to them about ANYTHING. they always end up driving it away and making me seem stupid for my thoughts. when it comes time to actually choose a career, they won't have a fucking say in what i choose. seriously. i'll choose whatever the hell i please, and maybe just to piss them off. its my life anyway. then my mom goes "why don't you ever ask us to help you with your homework?" and so i did, and i ended up getting yelled at by BOTH of them. for not knowing it. i mean seriously what the FUCK?!? does that picture seem fucked up to you!? they're just bastards. god. so i ended up going to sleep and listening to hoobastank at 10:00 because i couldn't take it anymore. its sad how even when you sleep you can't drive out your waking thoughts. i just want to become numb.
there i went, making a happy post turn out to be so depressing.

:: felt like saying something @ 8:55 AM ::

oh my GOD.

the new hoobastank is AMAZING. seriously. asfhdaskjlfhaklfjhaklsfhalkjashklsfahskfjahklshalk

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oh my god. i just spent the last 2 hours trying to find my swim suit since we have fucking swimming next week. i dug through my entire closet and threw everything out, then put it back in and it wasn't there. then i was like "FUUUDGGEEEE where the hell is it?!?" (<------ cause i coulda sworn i had put it in my closet :-/) but then i went to the laundry room and it was sitting under some clothes. FOR A YEAR. -_-

anyway we got schedules for next semester today. i really hope mine stays the same, even though these are sometimes extremely fudged up and so the people have to re-adjust it :-( me and court right now have the first 3 morning classes together!!! i have 2 still with kristine, and 3 with jennifer :-) oh and one with annie :-D XD. 4 of my teachers changed tho... >< and poop no classes with jolene or jenna. its something about the "J"s god damnit.
1) honors eng// worsley
2) child psychology
3) french
4) science// helm
5) SS// moore
6) math // (not with manka anymore)

during lunch jenna came to my lunch, FINALLY. she said she had to "interview" people har har. she says my lunch sucks tho. ppfff. :-) but at least she knows what i'm talking about now. okay whoa just...never mind. i walked into the computer room and i was like "o_O" cause my dad moved the crappy computer to the new comp's place, and the new comp to the crappy comp's place. its really weird >< i dont like it but its right next to the B&W laser printer now. which means i can print tabs easily.

its funny how whenever i clean i happen to find money.

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you have no idea what i've been up to this last hour. i clicked somewhere i wasn't supposed to and this site's link was permanently etched in my aim profile. i did a lot of stupid things including // un-installing AIM, re-installing AIM, running computer checks, looking for files, deleting files i wasn't supposed to and following the site's instructions to get rid of it. nope. none of it worked. the sad thing is, the first thing i should have done was go to the removing help site in my AOL browser, instead of internet explorer, because after i did, it worked. its gone now for ever. and i had to re-do my entire profile.

i hate the smell of ammonia. the OC last night was interesting....i was kinda confused about the dollar tho :-/ hopefully i can go to court's on the 26th. i know i can't sleepover cause of CS tho....damnit. oh well hopefully it'll still be great :-D i think my YM subscription is over because i haven't gotten the issue that everybody got and its been awhile...oh well my guitar one sub is coming in like a month which should be great :-D

today was a pretty good day overall. way better than yesterday.

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i feel like i keep on ruining my relationships with everybody i know. god. i'm such a fucker-uper.

anyway today in gym...it was scary as fudgE. apparently court, me and stephanie have a stalker. not like the ones that follow you around and always talk to you, but like the ones who....watch from afar. FUCK. stephanie is like the most observant person EVER. like i could never be like that! at first i thought what she said was a joke but then shes like "everytime we come here he goes there and then when we moved he does too" and then i thought about it and i'm like "OH MY GAWD" in total shock. and my eyes started to water. my eyes water so easily. whenever i laugh too hard or yawn or sneeze or...become shocked, in this case.

its so hard for me to type right now. i can't focus. theres something i have to do to make people feel better. aka confront and apologize

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courtney went home sick today :-( wah. i really hope she's here tomorrow...or else i won't have a gym buddy besides stephanie. OH MY GOD I DLED FULL ALBUMS HAHAH XD including....Blink-182: Blink 182, Puddle of Mudd: Life On Display, The offspring: the offspring i have to admit, blink has...changed. in a good way i guess. my god i don't have time to listen to all these songs i dled. >< damn me. i have no idea what to get people for christmas. i had an idea but my mom is a freak and won't let me do it. i think i am gonna. i wanna go to the dollar store soon and pick up some supplies and things....:-/ maybe i can be creative this year. budget is low. oh well theres still about 3 weeks...

there are so many people getting their braces off. i remember like 2 years ago there was this period when about 10 people got braces at almost the same time T_T so those people may be getting them off very soon...kacie got hers off and so did emily. beth is getting hers off this thursday. hah wow. god i am so not used to seeing teeth :-p

i can't wait until thursday to watch tv. it was all fucking re-runs last night but i watched csi:miami anyway because i really like that episode. i really wanna talk to some people and i hope they come online.

Listening to: Marilyn Manson - coma white its...pretty. <3 it

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lol first of all....i'd really like to know who reads this. when we were getting out of lunch today jacqui was like "heyyy some people told me you had jokes in your profile" and i was like "mmm nope i don't" and she goes well lots of people read it (or something like that) and i was like "ok wtf i have no jokes" she goes "its that link you have and you write stuff" and i'm like "OH MY GOD THOSE AREN'T JOKES!! ITS MY LIFE!!!!!" i really didn't know people actually clicked it. i mean, i know that random people over the internet look at this when they're searching for stuff but i didn't know someone would actually talk about it. and so which brings me to...there's no reason why you shouldn't be telling me you're reading this. i mean for god sakes, leave a comment and say you were here or SOMETHING. but then again...if you just wanna piss me off and make me paranoid, remaining anonymous may be the best choice for you. okay great....that whole thing i just typed was....pointless.

so today. lots of big stupid events. in gym the cardio day....i ran what we had to run in 24:24 with 36 seconds to spare. god. worst i've ever done...:-( tomorrow is floor hockey tho...and next week is swimming >< ... ugh i hate how i'm so paranoid about everything. oh yeah last friday yes, i did end up going to meng's house and seeing everbody. it was super cool, and mary ended up coming too!!! wine coolers were an unforgetable memory :-D its kind of strange how the old group of has not been the...you know. i guess its not a bad thing, i mean, new people and being able to stay together forever. its just that we have all changed so much. its scary looking back....but wherever this ends up...i hope i'll still be part of it all. whoa that just sounded so fucking pitiful.

i got 39/40 on the social studies test. i was like....shoCKED. annie got 36 :-) and i lost to her when we had to go up infront of the class LOL. oh man. roflmao. WHAT NOW?!?! xD. Alias is like my favorite show now. i <3 it SO MUCH. but i guess i <3 michael vartan even more :-p oh yeah in gym stephanie said that scholarship for perfect attendance in all 4 years is only $100. i was disappointed, but not shocked. i mean it makes sense. theres no way our fucking school could afford to give away $10,000 to each student. even tho its hard as hell to get perfect attendance in the first place. so now i am less obsessed with this whole thing.

i dled the entire new korn cd :-) i think i may get the puddle of mudd one soon enough too. its just that their new song is kind of annoying. but i guess the most popular may not always be the best.

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woo hooo happy thanksgiving to alll

meh no need to go into detail besides food :-D holy crap zebrahead does great covers lol. they did the spice girls one wannabe omGGG XDDDDD its great. i actually liked that song when i heard it on that one movie a long time ago. like with the toys that were alive lol. the guitar makes it SOOO much better tho. anyway, TOMORROWWW i'm going to meng's to see everybody!!!!! ESPECIALLY the people i haven't seen in like a year, or never seen (aka di!) wooo hoooo. its crazy tho. i never thought this would actually work out. but it IS! :-D i'm so happy. i'm sleeping over and then saturday is CS...i'll just say i had no time to do my hw :-p sunday we will hopefully practice.

blah blah blahhhhh

Listening to: Zebrahead - playmate of the year

:: felt like saying something @ 8:13 PM ::

nice way to end this week in school. 2 hw assignments. meh. my mom says if my dad will drive me to linda & helen's house on friday then i can go! DUDE their house is only like 4.5 miles away except it takes longer to get there. now if only i can convince my dad to take me. which shouldn't be that hard....can't wait until friday morning tho. me and my mom always go shopping. i think last year i got a bunch of electronics and shit. including cd-rw, cd player, 150 blank cds...ooo. anyway nothin much to write here. have a great thanksgiving tomorrow.

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wowie i have to remember to write in here. yesterday i slept for 3 hours and missed dinner. thats about it there.

today was a decent day. in badminton in the end, we were on the 3rd to last court out of 10 :-p meeee and nicole should have been partners :-p we coulda probably gone ALL THE FUCKING WAY to #1 (and not that way you sicko). i just realized i'm pretty competative. our group had 3 people ya know, and like uhm...yeah...i really dont care who reads this but i was like the only person that was decent :-/ so yeah. i even felt bad for people who were playing us. i guess everybody sucks at something. i mean, i suck fucking balls at swimming and football and basketball but those weren't for extra credit points. and they even SAID they WANTED the extra credit and heh theres no way my team could have won a game without me. i really needed the extra credit. and people on my team just fucking bombed it. even tho they said they wanted the ec, in the end they said "oh, i don't need it. i have 100% screw that!" ><. but yeah. i guess it would be pretty mean to say these things to their faces. partnering up with them was a big mistake. even though i <3 them to death sometimes its just not right to be paired up like this. at least that's what i think. cause i always think it's pitiful when someone good is with someone that sucks balls. *sigh* there goes to venting. i feel a lot better now. badminton is over. lets not ever go back to the past.

oh yeah everwood was SOO good last night. wwwwwow. in french we have to make this family tree --_-- i'm gonna do my mom's side and so i only have 1 cousin which makes it so much easier XD. i have 90.5 in that class.....heh. people had these silver stickers and they sticking them on my arm and backpack. except when i tried pulling my hair out the sticker was stuck to my hair so it hurt like hell to pull it out >< T_T in the end i ended up geting the stickers stolen or giving them away :-p we got new seats in english. lunch was funny. me and revae skipped the last 10 minutes and went to get her math notebook from ari. we had a test in math today. ughh. but at least no hw!! theres that movie with the guy from alias on tonight T_T wwwwwwwwwow. and speaking of tv, i have to watch the cold case i recorded last saturday.

oh yeah. ugh. my mom won't drive me to meng's on friday. if i can get a ride i could probably go. hmmmmmmmmmmmm gotta call linda & helen. maybe my dad will drive me there and then they could take me. har har har. wait....thats if THEY can get a ride....:-/ T_T *prays*

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so...yesterday was a very interesting day. i learned how to make my pencil spinning trick even better, but its hard so i have to practice :-p okay whoa that sounded so stupid XD

it started snowing yesterday too and theres a LOT of snow now, and its STILL snowing. my mom is like so scared to drive in the snow, and i dunno why. i wanna go to meng's on friday to see diane and linda and helen. i REALLLLLY wanna go. except the thing is, they're 40 min. away and i know that even if it WASN'T snowing my mom would still be kinda...50/50 on it. but maybe if the snow melts i'll be able to go :-p or my DAD could be an option. LOL. i think if i convince my mom to let me go, she'll have my dad drive me. i'm gonna be so pissed if i can't go though. god. but at least i'll see em on saturday......

i had to shovel the entireeee driveway today. my arms'll probably be sore tomorrow. and tomorrow. stupid badminton. god damnit i hate it :-p but theres really not that much left of this quarter...wow this is such a stupid post.

:: felt like saying something @ 6:57 PM ::

i got back from the diversity thing. it turned out to be GREAT! i walked in and saw lolly and julia! kristine was late lol. i got a pamphlet and then us 3 sat down. mainly it was like asian performances and stuff, and i thought they were just gonna talk about the cultures the whole time. but then like rashi and this group did this dance and then there was singing and instrument playing and breakdancing and shit like that :-) it was cool. worth the $2 :-p

i'm kinda obsessed with a perfect circle T_T i know di was obsessed with em awhile ago. i'm kinda slow on these things. takes me awhile to get used to a band like this. 3 libras is cool tho lol. i <3 the lyrics. and of course i love weak and powerless :-p

:: felt like saying something @ 10:10 PM ::

me and kristine & lolly are gonna go to this diversity thingy at school at 7:00. har har we get extra credit in french :-p its $2 -_- and i got a B- on the test >< pf i thought i did better. what a gyp! badminton sucks. we started on the winner's side today and slowly made our way to the loser's side. people are so cheap. they hit it like straight down. i'm not that mean to do that.

fuck my dad is making me get off.

listening to: Blink 182 - i'm lost without you i like their slow songs so much more. still wanting to hear an overall about the new cd....!

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